Stay At Home Mom Test Drive

So I would say that Im getting a test drive of being a stay at home mom this week. Day 1 would definitely be a failure! LOL

I woke up early this morning to take Bandito in for surgery. First I was surprised by Rusty shitting all over the living room, including inside my running shoes. Not a happy mommie AT ALL! So after gagging cleaning that up, I had to get Bandito to the vet. Poor guy had no idea what he was in for! I got a little emotional dropping him off, which I didnt expect. But he is the baby, and this was his first time being under, so I was a little nervous. I planned on coming home and going back to bed...but that didnt really work out to well. I wanted to try to file my unemployment claim first. Of course that didnt go as easy as I thought it would. Of course after I got all my stuff together and sat down I found out 10 minutes later it was a no go. I wasnt able to file online, and have to call on Wednesday. I wasnt actually tired enough to go back to bed after all that, so just stayed up. But Rusty and Vinyl were already tucked back in bed. LOL

The rest of my day basically was a little bit like this......surf the web, watch daytime TV, surf the web, find something to eat, surf the web, chat online with friends, surf the web, watch some more tv, etc. Yeah talk about being a lazy ass. Before I knew it, it was 4pm and I had to go pick up Bandito. LOL And oh poor, poor, Bandito. He was so out of it. He was walking into stuff when we got home, and would not lay down for nothing. He was whining because he was in so much pain. I felt awful. Finally I got him to lay down for a little while, and I kept petting him till he fell asleep. It appeared it hurt to lay down a certain way to. The worse feeling ever is not being able to make your doggie feel better!

I ended up watching Forgetting Sarah Marshall, which I enjoyed, and than Daddy came home! I told you it was like a stay at home mom. So Grant cut our jungle of a backyard, while I tried out a new recipe for dinner. Just a Mexican Pork Chop recipe. You just add salsa and cheese on top of the pork chops for the last 10 minutes. It was delish! Oh should I mention that Rusty shit again in the middle of making dinner. Yeah. I dont know what his deal is but hes really starting to piss me off.

Now all the kids are relaxing, sort of. Bandito keeps wandering around like hes going to miss out on something. But bedtime is a brewing so he should be relaxing soon to. Hopefully tomorrow I can be a little more productive. I guess I dont get the mom of the year award?

I deserve a few days of do nothing at all though. Hopefully that will bring my stress levels down. But dont we all deserve a day like that? I did break out in another annoying hive today but I think that was mostly due to Bandito having surgery.

Bedtime is calling. Sweet dreams blogworld.

Excuse The Dust.....

phew, it sure is dusty on this blog! I have sat down many times over the last month to blog, but nothing really came out. I dont know why there has been tons of things to blog about.

Anyhoo, I am now under the 5 month mark of the wedding date. Work is insanely busy. School is killing me this semester. And Im not doing so great at the balancing act of life - my stress levels are at an all time high. So I need an outlet. Time to get some of these crazy thoughts out of my head. Maybe I can at least sleep a little bit better than.

Im a little anxious for tomorrow. Bandito is getting neutered. He is way overdo for it, yes Ive been a bad dog owner. Please dont scold me for it. This is the first big thing for him. I get so nervous when my dogs are put under. It will be fine Im sure. I just hope he does okay, and heals quickly. And I hope he doesnt lose his personality. I have heard stories like that, but I think people overexagerate. My poor baby boy :(

I actually have this entire week off. Unpaid, which blows, but it will be nice to have a week off. Ive been so stressed out so a little downtime will be good for me. So thats why Im finally taking Bandito in, so I can be home with him all week :) So on my first day off I have to get up at 7am and take him in. For those of you that no me, that does not make a happy Melissa. If Im looking at the glass half full (which I need to do more of) than I realize that the two dogs that will be at home are the lazy nappers. So Im pretty sure they will be up for a cuddle session nap when I get back from dropping him off. We wont let Bandito in on that little statement. Tee hee.

Well I better get off to bed.....try not to cough to bad as I finish getting rid of the dust bunnies in here.

One Year Ago Today....

I ran my first half marathon. And it was absolutely amazing. I found myself pretty sad about it today actually. Sad, and a little mad that I couldn't get my crap together to run it this year. I will cut myself some slack that I have had quite the difficult year. (but seriously I cant use that excuse forever) It still made me a little sad when Ive been listening to all the race stories this weekend. I definitely had some envy!

So enough is enough. Today is a great day to recommit myself. I know. I know. You've heard this a thousand times. But this day last year was really such a huge milestone for me. I can remember it like it was yesterday. The emotions I felt that day I cant even put into words. It was just a really amazing experience. When you accomplish things you never think are in your reach...its life changing. No one can take that memory or feeling away. Its always nice to just go back to that moment, and get that warm fuzzy feeling all over.

Shortly after that wonderful day. About 10 days later I was hit with the passing of my dad. Life has been flipped upside down since than. Im in this constant struggle of control. Ill start to move forward, getting a good momentum of motivation, and than bam pulled back in the opposite direction. Im tired of it. I want that feeling back that I got on that day I ran my first half marathon. I can control that. I can control how I react to things. Running is one thing that has always maintained normalcy during all of this. And a lot of my reactions should involve it.

So as I reminisce on that amazing day, again Im saying it out loud for all of you to read. I am recommitting to myself. I owe it to myself. I deserve it. Im in control of my life. So I got derailed. I get derailed often. Its what I do after that derailment that matters. I ran a half marathon last year. I am capable of big things. Even if at times I feel like Im not worth it. Or Im more a failure than a successor. In the end of the day, the only person I have to impress is myself. Who happens to also be the only one who has me thinking these negative thoughts! I challenge myself to replace that negativity with positivity. And prove to myself that I am worth it. I challenge myself to react in a healthy positive way.

I also need to stop looking at the big picture, and take each day as it comes. Just try to make each day better than the last. Each meal better than the last. Each workout better than the last.

On that note, today was a good day. And tomorrow I will make even better.

Cincinnati...watch out. Melissa will be back for another Flying Pig Half Marathon in 2010 :)

Tagging Myself

So Lee tagged herself, and Im carrying that thought on by tagging myself. LOL This looked like a fun tag, and Ive been in a blogging block so maybe this will get me out of it.

8 Things I’m Looking Forward To:

1. Hanging out with some old friends tonight
2. Wedding in October
3. Becoming stronger in cycling class
4. Getting my body into a healthier fitter version
5. Starting the interior design program
6. Grants wedding present
7. Going to a Tigers Game
8. DEMF!

8 Things I Did Yesterday:

1. Had a great lia sophia show when I thought otherwise on my way there
2. Met some potentially new friends
3. Ate McDonalds, and although it was bad it was sooo good and worth it
4. Went to renew my drivers license and did not have wait in any line!
5. Carpooled with Danita
6. Had an Alabama Slammer!
7. Went to work - Boring!
8. Chatted online with Tam

8 Things I Wish I Could Do:

1. Pick up running at a faster rate
2. Make more time for leisure reading
3. Learn to eat healthy
4. Dance confidently
5. Blow dry my hair out
6. Pay off all my debts already
7. Start my own charity
8. Make lasting no drama friendships

8 Shows I Watch:

1. The Hills
2. Grey Anatomy
3. Intervention
4. Breaking Bad
5. American Idol
6. Say Yes To The Dress
7. The Office
8. Locked Up Abroad

8 People I Tag:
I don’t know if 8 people even read this, so consider yourself tagged if you want.

HYC - Week 14

Helllllloooooo out there :) Ive been MIA. Some good times some not so good times. But Im hanging in there. The new gym is up and running and more classes are being added every week. So Im trying a little bit of this and little bit of that. The classes are fun. And Im definitely getting great workouts in everything I try. And let me tell you....going to these workout classes with these rooms surrounded by mirrors on three sides is GREAT MOTIVATION! When your staring at yourself and thinking damn that is me? That cant be me! I have work to do! Its not a fun thing to look at, or to come to realize yes girl you have gotten off track.

Ive also added in some running again. I was able to run 35 minutes/2.75 miles on my first run back. I was very pleased with that! Ive found two races that I would like to run. One is a 5k on May 2nd, and the other is a 10k on May 30th. I haven't signed up yet. But have them in mind. Ill see how the next few weeks pan out running wise.

And I think I may try the cycling class at the gym. I hear great things about it, and how although I may feel like Im going to die...Ill feel great in the end. I have to admit I love those type of workouts. Im feeling good about working out. Now just need to get my food in check more often. I have six months left till the wedding and it is totally doable to reach my goal.

Our Wedding Website

Ive been meaning to share this for a little while now, but kept forgetting to blog about it! Probably about a month ago we started to create our wedding website. We sent out our Save The Dates, which included a magnet with our website. So we figured we should probably get that up and running since we are advertising it now. lol

So first we had to chose a domain name. Everything we came up with was taken, except www.melissaandgrant.com. It worked but wasnt our first choice since we thought the double A would throw people off. But we couldnt come up with anything more clever, so www.melissaandgrant.com it is :)

We had a few ideas bouncing around in our heads on what we wanted. So we started doing some mock ups, and were excited with the ideas we came up with. Grant is an awesome web designer so he would be doing all of the design work. So later that day I had a lia sophia show, and than went over a friends house for a spa/game night. I came home later that night to a wonderful surprise. Grant pretty much had the meat and potatoes of the website done. (Even when I talk about wedding stuff I reference food. Geez Mel!) When I looked at it I just grinned ear to ear. I had a image in my head of what it would look like, and this was above and beyond that! I LOVED it! It is so us to. Which a lot of people have told us :)

So next thing to do was the content. So as I worked on finding photos and writing up our love story...Grant had this great idea of a quiz. He was going to hide the answers within the site. He was so excited about this. I told you I have the best finance ever :) And I have to say, its been a bit hit. Its the first thing everyone talks about in reference to the site. :)

Just a few short hours later we had all the content filled out. Unfortunately we don't have a ton of info yet. (Im thinking we should though....we are almost at the 6 month period...should I be freaking out yet? LOL) But once we get more info...such as accommodations, venues, at home reception details, etc....than we will update the site with all that additional info. Or if another clever idea comes to mind that may get added sooner. The two of us are always bouncing ideas off each other...so you never know what we might come up with!

We had so much fun putting this site together! Check it out and tell me what you think :)

www.melissaandgrant.com

Keep Breathing

So to help with the difficult times Im compiling a playlist of feel good songs. Okay not all feel good. But songs that help me get through times like this. A dear friend of mine, Katie, has recommended this man, many times. She has gone through similar things like I have, and every song she refers me to...helps. Tremendously. Which means I need to download Kelly Clarkston like Katie recommended! One artist that helps me a lot is Ingrid Michaelson. Today I think Ive belted out singing this numerous times.

• Keep Breathing by Ingrid Michaelson

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The storm is coming but I don't mind
People are dying, I close my blinds

All that I know is I'm breathing now

I want to change the world
Instead I sleep
I want to believe in more than you and me

But all that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

All that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing.
All we can do is keep breathing

All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

Thank you once again Miss Ingrid. XO